Unspoken Words #1

I have a hard time saying some of the things that I want to say to you. The longer we know each other the less I feel I can ask you questions. I know that you have many secret/private sides to you that you don't want the other sides to know. The longer we know each other the less I fell that we are friends but instead just people who fuck each other every so often.
Throughout the summer, we were pretty regular of sexing every 2 weeks. It has now been almost seven weeks. I sometimes feel that you don't try hard enough to make our meetings and your comment back in August of "I can have sex with you anytime I want" rings in my head that you think I am available whenever you please. This is not true of course and I have tried very hard to let you know. You will never say you miss me so I will never tell you either. If I did you would just say something like 'me too' but be crossing your fingers or something.
I am in one of those fucking moods that if you called I'm not sure I want to answer or ignore it until I come back from vacation. I am thinking of writing you a letter with all the things that I expect done before I come back from vaca. And if those things are not done then I will raise holy hell.
There are times I wish that I could have a torrid affair with you but sometimes I feel that we have already done that and now I am just the forgotten chick. Sometimes you need to just understand that I am fucking HOT and you are a fat carpenter. I challenge you to find someone you can sleep with that is better looking than me, in better shape than me and more trustworthy than me!
FUCK YOU, BASTARD!!!