Almost 1 year ago....

It started a year ago with a whole bunch of innocent flirting that soon moved on to the not so innocent. Yes, I started having sex with someone who became a friend over the past 2 1/2 years. Yes, we are both married. No, we do not plan on leaving our spouses because it is not an affair. We are both at a xroads in our lives where we love our spouses but 16 years later are not in lust with them anymore.
I think this happens to more people than we realize. Some of us are willing to take the chance and hope that there is someone out there that re-ignites the spark that has long been buried deep inside us.
I found that person who "sparks" me. I am not looking to marry him and he is not looking to marry me. I know he has thought about what would happen in the long distant future if we eventually ended up together because he has said so out loud.
Why am I doing this? Do I have a husband who ignores me? No Do I have a husband who beats me? No Then WHY???
Because I married a man that was perfect for me and that I knew my family would love. He fits in great and always will. He is a doctor and so am I. He is my best friend. We can talk about anything (except this, of course). That's the problem. I want a man that is going to excite me, you know the so called "bad boy". With my friend I get to have fun sex, playful sex, UNINHIBITED sex, the kind of sex that is hard to have with your partner of 16 years.
I really do love my DH (dear husband) but he does nothing for me in bed and never has. I have never orgasmed with him and he has never been able to get me to orgasm because he is not very good at sex and horrible at foreplay.
Why did I marry him? Because I grew up in a very strict household that implied (because it was never spoken about) that sex was bad and so was anything that made you feel "tingly down there".
I was always the good girl (oldest child of course) who everyone complimented on about what a wonderful and thoughtful daughter I was growing up.