Letter # 6

Dear T-
So you had your yearly Xmas party 2 days ago and since then I can't wait to see you. I had a lot of fun, I stayed away from you and kept to one place in the house. You made the rounds and would come around and talk to me and E (a female someone that you have know for years that I met there) and put your arms around us.
Everytime you would look at me and smile, I would smile back politely with a little smirk. You and I both knew that there were wondrous thoughts going through our heads. I know you wanted to undress me and I kep thinking about how much I would like to get you alone somewhere.
The yearning is still there today. I would love to have some wild sex with you just to get the desire out of my system.
When I spoke to you yesterday at noon, you said that E had called you in the AM and had asked "What's up with you and K". That threw me for a loop and I answered with "What! What do you mean? I purposely stayed away from you." Now, at the end of the night we were sitting on the couch and you asked me to pass a stack of books that you were loaning to E and as you reached across, you rested your arm across my breast. That one subtle sexy forbidden move made me quiver in a good way. When I passed the books to you, we gave each other goofy grins with that knowing smirk. It was that exchange in front of E that made her take notice and call you the next morning.
I wonder what made her call you the next morning about it. I suspect she must either be jealous or have a crush on you. Because any normal person that saw that and interpreted something would not call the next morning unless they were jealous. They would simply note it, talk to their husband about it, speculate, and leave it at that. When women think that someone is stepping on their turf they get jealous. I felt the same way when you would talk about D a couple of years ago. There were many times that my blood would boil when I would think and wonder whether something was going on between you two. I would have loved to have called you and demanded an answer but then the rational side would set in and a couple of days later I would calm down. I know now that there is nothing going on because you call her an ultimate user who uses people and are not very complimentary of her. But I still wonder if you were after her when I came into the picture. Now I wonder if you are just friends with E or whether there was any inclination of desire in the past which may have made her feel slighted when she saw your arm drape across my chest.
I really do love you. Both as my friend and more than a friend. There are times when I wish I was in my 20s again and had met you so we could date in public and not have to sneak around.