Letter #1

Dear Friend -

I never know what's going on with you. Sometimes you act like you can't wait to see me and spend some time "Meeting" with me. Other times you blow me off like I'm just in the way.

Like the other night when we were supposed to meet at the end of the day and you called B to tell her you were on your way home and didn't call me to tell me you were too tired and just wanted to go home.

I have always been understanding, and have never pressured you. Why can't you just tell me. You should have called me first and said you were too tired to meet then called B and told her you were coming home.

We are just friends that are "hooking up" or as I call it "playing". I never want anything more from you than your friendship and companionship but there are times I think you are haunted by past memories of your affair. I know you worry that you might fall in love with me but I will not let that happen and considereing that it has been over one and a half years now, it is highly unlikely to happen. We have grown closer as friends and are now in a certain comfort zone. I am happy where I am with you and hope you are with me.

The difference is that this is not an affair but fun and last time you had a full blown affair because you were in love with N for over three years. If you loved her that much you should have not let her go when B discovered the affair. You are such a softie that you immediately acqiesed to her demands. You know you did the wrong thing.